Life is Beauteous

There's without a doubt, life is unpredictable. It sounds like a bit of bullshit to even write about it. So let's change a little.

Last night when I had lain down in my bed, the words "Life is Beauteous" became visualised in my mind. This is the name of an Italian film and it was my attitude towards life. "When have I lost this belief?" The question sunddenly came out from my mind. That is a really tough question but I still have a rough idea of what the answer is. The images of some upsetting events ran through my mind. No matter how saddening they could be, I knew it is time to embrace my old belief again.

Today, the mood was still bad. True, you can't really control your emotions even though you try hard to rationalise yourself. I am getting older and my life is entering another stage. The number 2005 frankly tells me that I am really no longer a teenager. I don't mind getting older, as everyone gets old, but I feel that at this time the prospects of my career is slightly bleak. I was suddenly thinking about my future tonight, yet have no idea about what it will be. I was humming one of the most famous songs of R. Kelly. I love this song particulary because it portrays my expectations of entering a whole new working environment with full of challenges. I believe many people do feel the same as I do.

Yeaterday, I had a talk with a university friend through the phone. To my surprise, he is studying a Bach. of Visual Com. As he finally found out he is not that kind of mechanism freak, he can not take those complicated mechanistic theories anymore. And right, he is going to pursue the same career path as mine. "What da fuck!?" "Is he fucking serious!?!?" "That's absoultely another disaster after me." ...etc. Those're what flshed through my mind when he was telling me about his great ideal. As a friend, I wish him will have a smooth career path in the future; but as the one who having gone through, I did warn him to prepare for the hardship of being a designer, as he is going to keep learning and studying unceasingly during his whole career life, which are completely different studies from universities.

Good luck mate, I know you will see this. Yes, it is you - Austin Orson!!! Whish you a beauteous life.